I grapple with the feelings of needing to write self-reflective, slightly off topic posts, and trying to stay on topic and upbeat. Sometimes the two are intermingled. Sometimes they’re not.
I have up days and down days, as everyone does. Today is a down day. I’m kind of angry, a little hurt, and just not feeling happy in general. Thankfully I know this moment, hour, and day will pass, but it doesn’t make it any less distracting.
My family is soon to embark upon a grand adventure. I will have many more details for you as the time draws nearer, but this grand adventure we are planning is causing me quite a bit of distress. I have been on high alert for the last week now. The only support I have is my husband, and I’m sure he is very tired of hearing about all of my elation, fear, and anticipation.
I’ve also encountered a few unpleasant experiences in the last three days alone that have put a sour taste in my mouth, and a touch of bitterness toward some very random people. I don’t like being told what to do — commanded like I am a child. I’m a grown woman, with two children and a husband to prove it. I am an adult, so please treat me as such.
But aside from my stress and my brief unexpected less-than-ideal encounters over the last week, I always return to running. I love running. It has kept me at peace for the most part. I do a lot of wonderful thinking during my runs. I self reflect a lot. I do my best problem-solving during my workouts. When I’m done with a run, I feel on top of the world. (Unless that particular run sucked, and then I’m just angry.) But after a while, the runner’s high wears off, and I’m back to being plain ol’ me. Filled to the brim with emotion, energy, and chaos.
Thankfully I have learned how to channel my energy into something good and positive, and not let it escape as a vast negative cloud around me. I have a lot to be thankful for in my life, and a lot to look forward to. It may be a crazy roller coaster, but I’m on it for the long haul, and it will be amazing.
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How do you manage your down days?
What is your go-to activity for a quick pick-me-up?
