To say the last couple months have been a roller coaster of sorts would be a gross understatement of the facts. The truth is, between finding out about baby #2, organizing and executing several playgroup parties, shuttling Boo back and forth to school three days a week, and trying to successfully push my organics business, all while maintaining the homestead — well, it seems I have been in over my head. Did I mention that naps in this house are a thing of the past?
I’m exhausted both physically and emotionally at this point. I need a vacation.
There was a brief, flitting bright spot of hope of a vacation for a day or so, and then reality hit yet again. Our poor old, geriatric dog has several tumors (all of which the vet seems to think are merely fat deposits, but they still seem gross and a little uncomfortable) as well as an issue with one of her hind legs. We are waiting for blood work results to make sure she is okay other than those random issues, but I worry so much that without surgery on her leg, her quality of life will be greatly diminished. It has only been a few days and it’s already been hard to watch her hobble around like a tripod.
All the times that I cursed her for shedding all over my house or breathing her stinky dog breath on me seem so trivial as this fantastic, loyal, beautiful dog slowly withers away in front of our eyes. The vet is optimistic that we have several years left with her, but to be perfectly honest, if she is going to be hobbling around in pain for the duration of her time left, I don’t know that I can stand to see her suffer. She doesn’t complain and she’s still as happy as a clam. But she doesn’t come bounding up the stairs anymore like she used to. She doesn’t run and play as easily as she once did. It just breaks my heart.
What’s more upsetting is that Boo and Puppy are finally friends. They play together. Boo loves laying with her and pretending she is his patient. And he tells us how much he loves his puppy.
Please send healthy vibes her way. We need her around for a long, long time yet.
